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SOTD: Revenge

This is a post about another XXXTentacion song that I've been really into lately. It's more got more of a singing and acoustic vibe that I really like. It's super short, but pretty dark. Read the lyrics below to see his words.

[Intro]
I think I, I think I finally
Found a way to forgive myself
From mistakes I made in my past
I think that's the first step, right?
You agree?

[Chorus]
I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear
Oh, man, what a world, the things I hear
If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?
Some kill, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk

Broken hearts, break bones, so break up fast
And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot
I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear
Oh, man, what a world, the things I hear
If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?
Some kill, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk

Broken hearts, break bones, so break us fast
And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot

[Outro]
In my grave, I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot
In my grave, I'll rot
I'll rot, I'll rot, I'll rot

Is my pain your freedom?
Is all of my pain your freedom?
Enjoy…

The album artwork reads:

I do the same f***ing s*** everyday. Everyday feels like Sunday. I cannot escape. My mind is sick. My mind is f***ing sick. I am not satisfied with anything. I do not care about progressing in my life. Throughout my life I cared about people who did not care about me. No one truly cares anyway. Life is just a waste of time. My life especially. Even though my family says they care, deep down, they do not. Friends will come and go. You know my f***ing life is a joke and I’m truly lost in life. My friend saved my life. My friend saved my f***ing life. It’s getting less stressful and crazy now but I’m still lost. I see the fake humans and their fake smiles with their fake love. I’ll f***ing kill all of them. I am not crazy. I truly am not. The only reason I am alive is because of the people who were there for me when I was crying desperately for help. Help. Help. My real family is dead to me. But I will always love them. They didn’t want to accept the fact that I was f***ed up. You’re not depressed. You’re not sad. You’re wasting your time, they didn’t get it until it was over. I saw everything before it happened. No one cared until they saw me progressing. Losing my friends was the best thing that ever happened to me. Now people come in my life, I am very grateful for them and everyone around me. I constantly get let down. I always get let down. Maybe because I expect so much from people who truly don’t give a f*** about me. I get attached to people I shouldn’t have. I expect too much. Might as well say f*** em, and f*** it. I’ll die alone. Hahaha. I’m such a f***ing p****. Depressed. Hopeless. Well, at least I know I am.

This song is chilling but I love the sonics of it. It gives a lot of insight to X's mind, especially after his friend Jocelyn killed herself. X, you're still missed, and your music will continue to be studied.

kk