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I've recently been obsessed with Lil Peep. His ideas and his music.

You may have heard about him (for the first time) months back when he died of an accidental fentanyl overdose in Arizona. He was a 21 year old emo rapper with influence from Good Charlotte, My Chemical Romance and all other bands alike. He was very open about his feeling of being an outcast and how he didn't fit into these social norms of what a person should look like or be. He openly suffered from depression and you can see him screaming out for help all over his social media and his music.

Come Over When You're Sober Pt. 1

Come Over When You're Sober Pt. 1

People were quick to make fun of him and say his music is trash and he's a junkie and now he's dead. I didn't know his music back then but I heard about his death on Twitter and saw posts on Instagram, and recently became intrigued.

I gave his release on Spotify a listen. It's called "Come Over When You're Sober Pt. 1." I listen to it all the time from top to bottom. His sound is refreshing. His message is raw and vulnerable. He is relatable. 

Since his death, a release of a new song with Marshmello came out and it's extremely eerie. Take a look at the video below. The song is called "Spotlight."

"The remarkable thing about Peep's music, though, is that after the initial waves of incredulity and condescension wash over you, another shock will set in: that this demonic hell-child is genuinely talented." (Noisey)

"If, as David St. Hubbins of Spinal Tap once mused, there's a fine line between stupid and clever, Lil Peep has mumbled and stumbled his way to standing on both sides of that line at once."

There's a part of Lil Peep's story that reminds me of young Machine Gun Kelly. And it makes me happy to see Kells is doing so well right now.

Another of Peep's songs below. This video makes me sad. I think you get a real glimpse at the fact that he's a real person in this video. The video is unapologetically Peep.

I don't care what anyone thinks about a white "rapper" with pink hair and red fingernails and a neck blasted in tattoos. This guy had a following and he meant things to so many people. His music was raw, real and challenging to the industry. He combined emo/alternative rock with hip-hop/trap beats while staying true to himself.

I don't agree with Peep glorifying drugs but maybe he was just being reflective and transparent with his life. I think sometimes we mistake the two.

Peep's music alludes to Kurt Cobain's "tortured sense of self, the jetpack fuel for his breakthrough September mixtape "Hellboy," mostly recorded in a forgotten drug-fueled haze at his old place in Skid Row."

Peep felt he never fit in with his hometown of Long Island so he moved to Los Angeles to try to become happy. He found that it wasn't the location that made him depressed, instead it was a chemical imbalance in his brain. He, however, declined to get professional help for his depression and mental illness. Instead, he tried to cope by self-medicating with marijuana and literally whatever other drugs he could get his hands on for free. It appeared that Los Angeles wasn't any happier internally for Peep but he continued to express himself on the outside and with his music as his primary outlet for expression.

In an interview with Pitchfork, Peep said: 

I have no idea [where I see myself fitting into the rap scene]. But I know it’s going to happen and it’s going to be really fun to see where I end up and who ends up f*cking with me. No one’s ever been in this genre before, so I couldn’t really compare it to anything from the past. I’m excited to find out.
— Pitchfork

It's hard to watch the above video of Peep's mom speaking on her son's passing, though she makes valid points in her brief speech. R.I.P. Peep. Your music lives on and your message continues with your strong fanbase. You went too fast, but accomplished so much in such a short amount of time. You made a new wave of emo/punk/rock/hip-hop/trap music and it's only growing stronger.